on the stormy thursday evening of june 27th, i gave birth to my daughter elisane (pronounced ellie-zan). this was certainly the most powerful experience of my life. i gave birth naturally and vaginally, no inductions, no epidural. i’ll share more about that when i write my birth story. these photos are bits and pieces of the last month.
- she loves her changing table, she looks up at the sky during the day and checks out the twinkling lights of the city at night
- in the wee hours of the night, erm morning, we listen to edith piaf, curtis mayfiled and bob marley.
- the good thing about having a baby in the summer is…they don’t need much clothing, i couldn’t resist these leg warmers though, great for when the ac is on.
- we met up with friends to toast our bebe at our local beer garden
- after ten straight days in doors we ventured out to the pediatrician and a walk through the park where josh and i had our first kiss.
- my dad picked up his granddaughter after much cajoling, he’s nervous about holding newborns. so exciting for him to see that his youngest daughter now has a daughter of her own.
- snuggling with papa, yikes his feet are dir-tay
- sunday afternoon stroll, mama is looking forward to building up her strength and getting fit.
- the last photo is pretty much how my hands look most of the time. i love nursing and being close to my bebe, it feels so natural and so right.
i want to give a little shout out to a reader from DC who was in Brooklyn visiting her sister and recognized me in target and said hello. you motivated me to carve out some time to post. it was really wonderful to meet you, i’m glad we got to chat!
ten years ago my sister (pictured here) was preggars with my eldest sister. my nephews were born three months apart and have grown up together like brothers and the best of friends. fast forward ten years later and my sister is now preggars with me and our kiddos will be just one month apart and maybe even less considering my little one isn’t quite ready to join the world yet. we were at our friend’s bbq and josh snapped these photos, we will certainly treasure these for many years to come.
still cooking! here i am at 39 weeks. you may remember this skirt from my honeymoon. i def have to work to shimmy myself into it, but it still fits and once it’s on it’s quite comfy. i really didn’t go crazy with maternity clothes, i just worked with my looser clothing and paired them with stretchy tops. i got my hair braided in preparation for the summer. i love the long braids, but frankly it’s too hot and with a baby i want to be able to pin my hair up easily. we are off to moma to check out the rain room. the baby’s due date is sunday, but with the supermoon this weekend, i doubt s/he’ll come out. we’ll have to see.
outfit details: purse and top h&m, skirt handmade, sandals madewell
so it’s safe to say that i’m a daddy’s girl, many of my dad’s old friends say that when i’m around, they feel like he’s around. they say we carry the same sort of energy and vibe and that are mannerisms are similar. i’m crazy about my old man for so many reasons. i respect that he’s been married to my mom for forty-two years. i love that when i go home i can hang out with both of them like i have since i was a kid. my dad takes his role as father very seriously. i don’t think he was ever late picking me up and i didn’t learn to drive till i was 25 (seven years ago) so he would pick me up quite a bit as you could imagine. what i respect the most about him, is that he was born in the most economically depressed country in the western hemisphere, haiti and although it’s difficult to exist as an immigrant in a country and be estranged from those closest to you. he’s made it work for himself on so many levels. while he accepted the limitations of being a foreigner he figured out how to carve a comfortable life for himself here. somehow on a working class salary, he put my two sisters and i through private school for our entire education (grade school through high school) sent us all off to college, provided us with comfortable home to live in and gave us a strong sense of security. i could go on and on about him, but i think the one thing that resonates with me the most is time. at various points in my childhood, based on my needs or that of my sisters he would adjust his schedule, so that he could be more present and this has made a tremendous impact on me. he didn’t buy me things often, but he made sure he was around to take us on long bike rides and train my sister for her track meets and make pistachio pudding with us. since he is not much of a consumer, i’d often write him letters on father’s day, as i know how powerful words are to him in lieu of anything store bough. so this is my little tribute to the first man in my life, the father, the grandpa, the husband, the builder, the cancer survivor, the philosopher, the activist, and thinker. i feel incredibly blessed to have come from him, to have been raised by him and to be a part of his family. there is nothing like time and i feel incredibly grateful that he gave and continues to give his so generously.
last friday, josh mentioned that there was a new noah baumbach film out, and without reading any reviews or watching the trailer, i was down for seeing it. i loved margot at the wedding and the squid and the whale and was open to whatever this film had in store. unlike his other two films, this one is on the lighter side. you guys no i tend to lean towards heavy emotional dramas, but this was just what the doctor ordered. i brought a pillow to the theater for this aching back (i’m 38.6 weeks) and enjoyed this film, perhaps you will too, especially if you like films that explore relationships between women, woody allen flicks and those set in new york about people trying to carve out a creative career for themselves in this city.
happy friday folks!
images via 1,2
…this handsome gentleman made an honest woman out of me.
p.s. more photos here & here
on memorial day, josh and i biked down to coney island from our place. it was rougly seven and a half miles. no small feat with a five pound baby in my tummy. we stopped for delicious pizza, you know the ones by the slice with the crispy bottom and the crust that’s soft with tiny bits of crisp. as a native new yorker there are two things i’m particular about, my pizza and my bagels. anyway we finally made it to the boardwalk and had some funnel cake. yea, i’m definitely indulging these days. for the majority of my pregnancy i’ve been eating, how i usually eat which is fairly healthy. i make smoothies for breakfast, eat kale salad or homemade soup for lunch. i only eat free range chickens and grass fed beef. now that i’m at the end with just a couple weeks to go, i’m giving into my cravings a bit more. right now my favorite snack is organic whole milk and graham crackers. i also love a slice of pizza with crunched up doritos on top, ha!
outfit details: dress vintage, shoes vintage, both from the brooklyn flea
sunny days are still few and far between around these parts, so when we woke up to blue skies, and got word that the bluebells were in full bloom, we high tailed it back to the the botanic gardens. my friend gave me this vintage dress last year for helping her decorate her apartment. she had it sitting in her closet for a while and figured it was time for it to go since she never wore it. it was too big and i never got around to tailoring it, good thing i didn’t. i’ve been focusing most of my thoughts and energy on the little life growing inside of me. sending him or her my good intentions, playing my favorite songs and surrounding us around positive people. all ready i’m inspired by my little one. this wee one has pushed us to cleanse and declutter and make physical and spiritual space for him or her. my heart is wide open and i’m ready for this child to come when s/he’s ready.
outfit details: dress vintage, sandals madewell (on sale last year)
p.s. the bluebells circa 2011